Choosing Myself: A story about coming home to my heart

How I chose myself After 3 decades of hiding!

I was born on a small island with ancient memory in its soil. Sri Lanka raised me between tradition and silence, between the expectations placed on me and the quiet truth pulsing inside my chest. I grew up learning how to soften my edges, how to dim my colours, how to tuck away the parts of me that did not fit the script.

For thirty years I hid my queerness. I hid my sensitivity. I hid my creativity. I hid the bright, wild, too much pieces of my spirit because I thought shrinking was the cost of belonging. I became an expert in disappearing.

Everything changed the day my daughter was born.

Her arrival cracked something open in me that could not be closed again. In that moment I understood a truth that felt older than my own body. I could not raise a child in honesty while still lying to myself. I could not teach her to stand in her light while I was still folding myself into shadows.

That was my awakening.
Not an explosion.
Not a miracle.
But a quiet decision.
I will not abandon myself anymore.

And like that, I began choosing myself after a lifetime of choosing silence.

The Slow Burning of Becoming

Awakening is not one moment. It is the thousand small choices we make after the truth has already caught us. It is the courage to unclench old patterns. It is the willingness to meet the parts of ourselves we once buried. It is turning toward the ache instead of away from it.

My journey became exactly that.
A steady remembering.
A returning.
A re inhabiting of the man I had always been beneath the noise.

I learned that healing is not about becoming someone new. It is about releasing everything that is not you. It is allowing the soul to breathe again.

What Is Shifting In My Life Now

I am moving through a powerful clearing. The old layers of fear, doubt, and inherited shame are losing their weight. My inner landscape is rearranging itself around devotion. I feel more grounded, more truthful, more unapologetic than I have ever been.

There is a clarity rising within me; firm, alive, unmistakable!.

I am learning to trust my own light. To stand in who I am without shrinking or explaining. To inhabit my queerness as medicine, my sensitivity as strength, my art as prayer.

This season feels like a rewiring. A remembering. A return to myself after decades of trying to be someone else’s idea of a man.

Why I Share This

I share this because every soul I meet carries a similar story. We all have rooms inside us we have not entered in years. We all have versions of ourselves waiting to be reclaimed. We all carry a truth that once felt too dangerous to live out loud.

My work today is simple. I create spaces where people can come home to themselves. Through yoga, ritual, queer wellness, art, and soul work, I stand as a witness to what happens when a person stops running from who they really are.

And I am still learning. Still choosing myself. Still becoming.

If my story touches something inside you, may it be a reminder that your truth is never too much and your light is never too bright. The world needs the version of you that you have been afraid to become.

And if you feel called to walk this path with me, my door is open. Always.

If You Feel the Pull to Change Your Life

If something inside you is stirring
if a part of you is tired of carrying guilt, shame, regret
if you are navigating a breakup or a heartbreak
if you are wrestling with addiction
especially cannabis or alcohol
if you are learning to embrace your queerness as medicine
or simply trying to remember who you are beneath the noise
you do not have to walk this alone.

Three Powerful Portals of Change open for you now

On my website I have opened a new space, a sanctuary for those who are ready to return to their light called Soul Consulting.

It offers three paths three portals for those on a journey of remembering.

Inner Alchemy: Personal sessions to uncover truth, restore balance, ignite purpose and gently bring you home to yourself.

Queer Wellness: A safe space to embrace queerness as medicine
to heal shame to soften the armour to breathe again to live in your own light with freedom.

Soul Business Consultancy: For creators, space holders, and leaders
who want to align vision with strategy and grow a business that is rooted in - soul, integrity and truth.

This work is for anyone ready to stop hiding, stop shrinking- stop apologising for their own brilliance and begin living the life their soul has been whispering toward.

If your heart is pulling follow it. Your light is waiting.

Comment “I’m Ready” to receive a free PDF with journal prompts t start your journey.